Come to find
that I enjoy spending more time behind this computer, drawing, and watching discovery channel with Jenna than I did doing half the wild n crazy things I used to do. Honestly, I’m just happy i’m accepting this as my life-style now, rather than later in life. It doesn’t bother me that all people do is wrong eachother, cause i’m quite content with eliminating them from my life. I just think the best plan for me is to keep to my creativity, because that’ll never let me down. Going spray paint shopping today, pretty excited about it.
Tonight I had the time of my life, best Halloween ever. I spent the whole day/night with Cassie, Jenna, and Mandy; happily. But the main point of this post is, the best thing I did all night was breaking into MI memorial and spending sometime with Lindsay with Jen. I finally got to tell her I love her and hope she’s doing well, I’m glad I still got to spend my Halloween with her. It’s never gonna be like she’s gone to me…because as I told her tonight; I’m gonna be there EVERY HOLIDAY, even if I have to break in. This is a picture of the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met. I’ll always love and miss you girl<3 Rest easy.
“Post Script”
I love having Mojo jo jo as one of my bestfriends, mainly because he’s more of a girl than i’ll ever be. Also because he loves party monster & let’s me do his make-up. But the best part of all is that he makes me somehow dance and sing to all the music I hate; Lady Gaga, Miley Cyrus, and Some Owl band. I have the time of my life everyday I’m with that kid, he’s my girl for lyfe. Just wanted to state how happy I am that I have a gay bestfriend…whatever. JUST SAYIN’.
Today I came to the realization that my friends and I, we’re out of our minds and I don’t mind too much because I have the best of times with them not doing much short of….welll….being weird. Haha, Oh how I love the gang + such:)
This is where I wish I was this season, But instead, I am in crappy Michigan with it’s even worse weather.
I’m starting to wonder
When I’m going to feel ‘normal’ again, when all this will pass and I can actually sleep and wake up thinking, “Today’s gonna be a great day”. Because now-a-days, all I feel is like it’s a dragging process to carry out everyday and not stay in bed for half of it. Talking about everything usually helps me to feel better and get everything out, but I feel as if i’m a burden to others for bringing this up….so either I sit and keep every thought in my head to myself and am a debbie downer, orrrr I talk about it and feel bad because everyone else doesn’t seem to feel the same as I do. I guess I just think too much?
Not too sure, I think tomorrow will help me to feel a bit better; hopefully.
